I am a thinker...I do lots of it...alot of times...way too much of it. I have been thinking lately, kinda giving myself a personal debriefing on the past 2 1/2 months...actually this was a bit forced on me in that I was sooo exhausted from going all out for so long that I had no energy to do anything but think...but I digress...again...
Somewhere in my 2 1/2 month painting goal to prepare for the art show...I got lost...(that happens when "type A Alisa takes over!!)...I got so caught up in producing, that to quote David Bayles & Ted Orland in Art & Fear, "Consider that if artist equals self, then when (inevitably) you make flawed art, you are a flawed person, and when (worse yet) you make no art, you are no person at all!" I lost the joy of why I paint in the first place, as thanksgiving back to God for letting me create. This is not to say that I can't prepare for a show or do a show...this was just a good experience in showing me how easily I lose my focus and get lost in the process. My worth is not tied at all to what/how I create...God loves me no matter what...my creating is an expression of love for Him...not to get Him (or anyone else) to love me.
Another quote from David & Ted, "The best you can do is make art you care about - and lots of it!" So, here's to enjoying the process and being thankful that it really isn't all about me after all!!! (who knew...=)